Friday, October 10, 2008

journal entry about that distant husband guy and what I am realizing about myself-sorta

Thinking about it on my way to sleep. Got up and wrote it down. No, marriage is not this close to the forefront of my mind. I am a single woman right now and proud to be that. But that doesn't mean that I can't think about it.

I want more than anything for that man to hold me so close and tight and let me sleep on his chest with joy and pride in having me as a wife. I want and need him to hold my face and say to me regularly, "You are enough for me. I am completely content and satisfied by you and I could not ask for anything more. Thank you for all that you do and for how you tenderly take care of me and my home. I will treasure you always and I will never ever ever leave you or forsake you and my eye will never desire to go astray. And I will lead our family by God's hand which is bigger than my own."

From what I have gathered, this is the longing in the hearts of most women, but this is one of the first times that I tapped into myself and realized what it is that I am really longing for.

1 comment:

Ryan said...

per your request:
Having marriage on the forefront of your mind is not absurd and most definitely not a sin. However, you are a very smart lady and know this! Your list conforms to most dating sermons, "ladies describe Jesus as the perfect hubby". Maybe that's why so many divorcees look for round two in church singles classes.

Keep up the blogging... I don't want to hear about you falling asleep at the wheel. Pick a sleep pattern to stabilize your circadian rhythm! If you can't seem to avoid this, I'll offer some pro bono fatigue management consulting:

peace :p